i think i am psychic. really really. the two things that i said would come true today, did. :) ok two outta three la..maybe the bus-stop prediction kinda fell thru, a litttttle bit. hurhur.

i need to start predicting more useful things for myself tho..hahahahha. ok. this week i will win the lottery aaaannnnddd i will win a totally sponsored trip for 4 to egypt and paris.

YAYYYY i cant wait.

i am looking forward to my hameni meating laterrrr...meetin her at cityhall and we're gonna cafe cartel-fy with our yummy food and ciggies. the agenda for this meeting is plenty plenty...but first must eat cos im starving and im not gonna eat till dinnerrr.

meetin the girls on fridayyy..at first we were thinking of goin to gotham cos farzy actually kinda likes it, but then we decided to screw the clubbing and go to minds cafe and really just chill out and fool around together..after all, amidst the noisy clubs, we wont be able to hear eachother's lame jokes and what not..hahahah shit man. i miss them, cant wait for fly-day.

farzy's askin me to go for this costume party on sat..the theme is movies and im actually gettin kinda excited. i just asked ryan to follow me too so i gotta get details later and plan and see if im really gonna go..i have this tendency to get realllly lazy BUT u know how im a sucker for halloween...and this is like a pre halloween partayyy and eli's lendin me her blonde wiggg so now i just gotta think of WHAT i wanna go asss. so funnnnn, im realllly lookin forward to this weekend man.

was suppose to go down to rouge for dinner this thursday but then i realised i told my mum that i'd follow her for this bbq at the countryclub so ive gotta rush down and meet her for that..so we postfoned the rogue thingy to next thursday, since ragi's got stocktake this thursday also. ughh i canntttt waaait.

ok im gonna go rest abit..sumthin'sup with my eyes and i dont wanna have ugly red eyes laterrrrrr. :)

i went to starbucks around 4. sat there, did some work, had my caramel frappe. webcammed wit my hameni for abit, then the sis and i decided to go for KFC. yes, i know, my will power could use a little work:)
but then parents called, and they decided to join us at starbies. daddy wanted his frappe, so we sat there and bummed for an hour plus. the sis and i ran away to smoke a couple of times, then arnd ten we went for dinner at the seafood restaurant near my place. i had sambal kangkong, prawn paste chicken wings, hot plate tofu and hot plate beef. hello fooood, hello fat. but too good to turn down. i'm so full now, seriously, i dont know how i'm gonna allow myself to sleep coz i'm dead tired and all too ready to knock out but noooo, i cant on an empty tummy.

how la howwwwwwwwwwwwwww?

I can give you what you want.
I can make your heart beat short.
I can make you ice cream
We could be a sweet team
Melting in your vice dreams, sport.

I can be the sauce you crave.
I can spell what you can't say.
Chocolate flavor love theme
Treat the treats you so mean
Covering your nights and days.

Let me give you what you'd like.
I can make your mouth run dry.
Drink me like a liquor
C'mon and dip your dipper
Show me what you're here for, guy.

I can give you what u want.
i can make your back real taunt
Fantastic flavor fancies
Sick like Syd and Nancy
Wicked as a joyride jaunt.

What you want
I can give you what you want
What you want
I can give you what you want, you want

new young pony club-icecream

magic beans, we call them.

i dont take drugs, i never have, and i never plan to. but how i believe in magic, and how i hope for many things, so many things.
even some things that right now, dont look so good.

i want you. i try and tell myself otherwise, i try and distract myself but the truth is, i believed in what we had, and i hope you will get better soon, so that maybe oneday, you'll be ready for you and me.

noone else comes close, u know? i dont ever feel as safe as i feel when im in your arms, and the memory of that is enuff to keep me going, for now, but i dont know how long more it'll last, till i'll need you to hold me again.

i miss you.

and so the weekend's gone, gone, gonnneeeee:(

i spent friday tuitioning, and then i went to meet eli in town for dinner. we had our KFC, again, i swear she's the only one who'll faithfully eat that with me whenever and wherever, but of course she can afford to eat as much as she wants when i..mm..should really start watching it la. haiyah. but its so worth itttt.
but i think this week i'm gonna lay off the fried food and the frappes and try and detox my body from all the many fats for a bit. :)

the key word being TRY. hahahah

yeah so we had dinner, and then went to mc-cafe and chilled there for abit, surrounded by many many people and the two of us were like stranded at our island of a table, but hameni-fying away happily ahahah mmm which reminds me, i better change my blue-tooth name quickly. HAHAHHAHA

then my mum called and she was havin dinner at hyatt wit my cousin so me and eli went to join her at the lounge for a drink, and then shanker came to meet me in town and we headed down to st james..met raine and all there and then sal came down with gopi and a friend but they couldnt come in cos one of the guys was wearing slippers. heh. yeahh sooo me and shanker just stayed for abit and laughed at all the many happyboys on the podium, and then we met raine and went down to boat quayyyyy.

met alissa and all there and me and aliss had our happy little drunken conversation haahhahhaah it seriously is damn hilarious how we can be so completely high yet have a heart to heart talk hahah but yeah it was nice seein that girl, its been a while.
then she me jiv and shanker went to silver hahaha but we left really quick la, and shanker dropped me home and i knocked out the second i reached my bed, i was so SO completely tireddd.

i spent saturday lazing about at home, i didnt feel like having a late night out again..and then sri came over around 1am-ish and we chilled and he filled me in on his awesome spain trip. SPAIN. dammmmit. seriously. heh. then i kinda stayed up alll night and all the way into sunday afternoon..spent the time helping my mum make nasi lemak (i know rightttttttt) hahaha and then i knocked out at around 5 pm..and woke up cos my sis and mum were forcing me to have dinner :(

then i slept again and woke up around 4 am to watch my shows onlineeee. im gonna finish the last episode for today and then sleep for abit, wake up at ten and go get some work doneee.

its gonna be august sooooon man...time's flying by, oh so fast.

i am fuckin bored.

starbucks should serve vodka, i think.

i have a question. its my random question of this month, and its sorta boring.

Dont you think that Aries are the most awesome, sexy people ever? as in seriously. Be it the females or the males.

whaddya think?

i think yes.

just got off the phone with my hameniii... we are super-women, we really are. and one day, we will take over the worlddd, but till then,we're stuck doing these mundane day-to-day things, and dealing with silly little things like breakups and all.

Just for now.

you know since my last blog at around midnight last night?i knocked out, woke up arnd 9 in the morning, had breakfast and did some reading, and then i went back to bed again cos im havin crampies. its terrible, my cramps are the worst everrrr and im always stuck in bed for a couple of days. and today just HAD to be the day, thus un-doing my fixing of the body clock. heh.

but then mummy woke me up around 1pm to help her with some confusing maths sums, i swear, the stuff they're making the kids do nowadays is pretty intense. but its good la, i guess we are breeding the children who will run our country in the future. i just hope they turn out like me:)

my cramps are abiiiit better..i woke up to grab a bite and talk to eli for a bit, then i indulged in this GORGEOUS chocolate cake that seriously almost made the cramps disappear, and then now im online blogging, and once im done replying to my emails, im back to bed. ive got a pretty long day tmw:( ive gotta wake up at ten and maybe head to starbies with the sis to do my work, and then ive got tuition around gardens, and then im meeting eli in town around 7ish. am nottt clubbin tmw yes. gonna just rot away at mc-cafe and hameni-fy.

alrightyy, i'll be off then. tata!

my body-clock has been pretty much screwed for the past godknowshowlong, so ive been trying to get it back to normal..and its not easy:( i normally sleep around 6am-8pm..so a few days ago i thought maybe if i stayed up all the way to the next evening, i'd be so tired, i'm knock out around 7pm and wake up the next day at 7am and voila~all back to normal.
but sadly..the body does not work that way. heh. took a few days tho..but finally..last night, i slept arond 3am, and then kept wakin up and going back to sleep here and there till i finally woke up at 8 am.

yay.

now the main obstacle to overcome was actually stayin up the whole day, and then sleeping before midnight.

and thank godddd i managed toooooooo!:) hahah had to keep myself damn busy tho..so i made a list of things to do so i wouldnt have even a second of spare time to nob off into sleeep. i e

-watched two episodes of friends.
-scrolled thru the payperview and decided on what movies i wanted to watch this weekend
-talked to shawn for a bit on the fone
-msned with eli and we amused our hameni asses off
-went for a jog
-took a niceeee bathe
-java fetched and he drove us to town (this is the one day i think i would have knocked out in the bus, so thanks love)
-we sat at one of the nicest starbies ever and he did his report while i did my researched
-i went for tuition
-msned eli with more rubbish
-msned javaboy as well, even tho he was sittin a few cm away from me
-eli came to meet us to chill for a couple of hours
-me and her went outside to smoke and gossip
-eli left to meet her girls and me and java continued our work
-we looked thru some youtube videos
-repaired my bag's zip (okkaaayy so i wont take credit for this la..you YOU. my anti-hero)
-we went to wisma for dinnner, i had one of the best hokkien mees ever, with not so good sambal tho
-we walked to paragon
-had an INTERESTING arguement with him about language
-found out javaboy is blooody stubborn!:)
-he drove me home
-i rescued a babyleaf from his car
-came home and had a munchy
-talked to the parents for a bit
-msned with ragii
-im here blogging now, any moment gonna eyes-close-and-fall-asleep.

im so damn tired. i hope i have an awesome dream tonight.

Somewhere along the line I must've gone off track with you
Excuse me, think I've mistaken you for somebody else
Somebody who gave a damn, somebody more like myself
These foolish games are tearing me apart
You're tearing me, tearing me, tearing me apart
Your thoughtless words are breaking my heart
You're breaking my heart

hola.

i have changed the url addie of my blog soooo here's the new one. its this same very blog, so if you're already here and reading this, i'm not quite sure why i'm enlightening you but anyhoo, it's

itsthebitchswitch instead of dirtydiamonddust.

why the change? im not sure. i think maybe its just cause dirtydiamonddust was abiiiit too happy and laalaa-ish for me, and since i was getting pretty nauseated from it, i'm sure you guys were as well.

so yes. i killed that old one and turned the bitchswitch on:)

i am sickkk. i woke up in the morning, did some stuff, wentout for abit, and then came back and knocked out till now. it's almost 8pm, and all i wanna do is stay in bed somemore. and the best part is, my sis bribes me wit KFC, but only if i get out of bed and follow her to thomson plaza, but i resist and say no, cos honestly my laziness is taking over everything today..BUT then mummy calls and asks me if i want KFC for dinner. and HOW CAN I SAY NO?

please bear in mind, that i had the KFC two piece chicken mean last night for dinner with javaboy. he let me decide on the place, and yes, i still chose KFC.

i'll be lucky if i dont end up becoming one big fried piece of thigh meat.

anyway..im off to do some thinking..got lotsa stuff to get done and this procastination, is not gonna corrupt me anymore.

es todo~

hahahahahah this ragini very funny la. her latest blog entry..hahahahaah eeeediot.

anywayssss..i had another pretty havoc weekend...i dunno why but i thnk ive been going out waaaay too much..and i dont even plan to man. i plan to be all good girl and say home or do quiet things like watch batman *ahem* or starbify BUT then somehow i end up doing anything but. i had a full day of tuition on friday, and then when i was finally done around 8pm, i was supposed to head down to somerset to meet eli, but then i got lazy, and ended up meetin ragi and mal at the thomson starbies instead...bought my sushi for dinnnerrr, and then the three of us just rotted there till about 11 plus. i dont know HOW this eli thinks i ditched her for a BOY but yeah, hahahahah. ragi,mal! i think she's calling you both manlyyy mwahahaha.

anywaysss...then mal and i got abit inspired to join shawn and all at gotham...it was a sudden thing, and i thought why not man. sal is supposed to do this thing every weekend where she's supposed to ask me where im going, and if i say gotham, she has to convince me to NOT go..kinda like a gotham detox i guess, after all thats happened there. but but but i sumhow evaded her sms-es hahahah and yeap, me and mal went home to change and then headed downnn. was quite the funnnnnest. joanne and john came to join us for a bit and then i headed to this new place with them for abit, and then went home after.

i dont even know what time i woke up on sat, but i know it was ridiculously lateee. was supposed to meet eli around 5 but i think i only woke up around 6 plusss...and then ragi called and me her and cher made plans to go dempsey but then i realised i had already made plans to meet eli so i called el and we met in town around 8 plus...we walked by marriot and dropped in on cher and ragi to say hieee..then we went lido for dinner and some update-session, which i think we both needed badly. heh. then sal joined us and we went to mac-cafe to get our cofffeeee, and happened to bump into ragi and cher there again ahhaah so funnn. so yeah. a nice CHILLED out night was on the agenda..no alcohol involved especially since sal was driving, BUT THEN my sister called and said she and one of her best friends wanted to club, and my sister hardly ever wants to, so i was immediately up for it, cos like, hello. how can i refuse a night out wuth my awesome sistaaaaa? hahah then we convinced eli and sal to join us so we drove home with sal to drop her car off, and then we cabbed to clark quay.

started wit an amsterdamnnn...yeah. i know. but me and eli are quite the addicted.

then we went to mos, eli's friend cos us VIP access buttt i didnt really dig the crowd and placeee, so we left for gotham cos my sis and her friend wanted to check out the show there. we ended up buying a bottle, sat and drank, did many shots, had lotsaaaaaaaa silly fun, it was funnn.

ryan ended up at gotham toooo, yayyy. chilled with him for a bittt..then i bumped into farzy hahaha and she convinced me to follow her to this house party after gotham closed, and ryan happened to be going for the same one so yayy we all went together. it wasnt bad..altho most of it was spent havin intense conversations over our ciggies hahaha me him and my sister. then i ordered macs cos i was starving, and then my OLD sister wanted to leave mwahahaha so we cabbed home.

yeah. and then i slept and woke up around 7-8plus. hahahahah talked to sal and eli for abit..then talked to malibuuu (see mewly, YOU have a nickname toooo okay?) hahah and then javaboy came over and we went for teh near my housee. i got to whine to him abit..heh. thanks darling. then i came homeeeeee and now im gonna rot like a bum:)

lazy sundays rock.

es todo~

p/s. ragi- naanthaan tingting. *mwahaha*

see i can do the whole blogging in tamil tooooooo:)

Every finger in the room is pointing at me
I wanna spit in their faces then I get afraid of what that could bring
I got a bowling ball in my somach, I got a desert in my mouth
Figures that my courage would choose to sell out now

Ive been looking for a savior in these dirty streets
Looking for a savior beneath these dirty sheets
Ive been raising up my hands, drive another nail in
Just what God needs, one more victim

Why do we crucify ourselves
Everyday I crucify myself
Nothing I do is good enough for you
Crucify myself
Everyday I crucify myself
And my heart is sick of being in chains

Got a kick for a dog, beggin for love
Gotta have my sufferingso that I can have my cross
I know a cat named easter, he says will you ever learn
Youre just an empty cage girl if you kill the bird

Ive been looking for a savior in these dirty streets
Looking for a savior beneath these dirty sheets
Ive been raising up my hands- drive another nail in
Got enough guilt to start my own religion

Why do we crucify ourselves
Everyday I crucify myself
Nothing I do is good enough for you
Crucify myself
Everyday I crucify myself
And my heart is sick of being in chains

Please be
Save me
I cry

Looking for a savior in these dirty streets
Looking for a savior beneath these dirty sheets
Ive been raising up my hands- drive another nail in
Where are those angels when you need them

Why do we crucify ourselves
Everyday I crucify myself
Nothing I do is good enough for you
Crucify myself
Everyday I crucify myself
And my heart is sick of being in chains

i love JB:) seriouslyyyy. its a shopping galore, without having to go all the way to KL, and the prices are almost as good. went there with the parents on tuesday, and it was pretty awesome, from the shopping to the bonding to the great local food. i had so much funnn, and i really wanna go again. too bad i didnt manage to buy even ONE pack of ciggies tho,haiyahh. but i guess my lungs will thank me for that in a few years to come.

yesterday went by pretty slow..had tuition and then after that i met Jas for dinner at fareast, like finalllyyy..its been ages since i saw that woman and it was nice catching up over dinner. then we both made our way down to market street to meet mikey, and we had a couple of drinks there. im liking that place muchhh, and i'd love to go back again and try the wraps and the salads and the yummy sounding martinis..mmm YUM.

then then then i got tempted to club, so i went to o bar to meet joanna and john and all..mike came down abit laterrr..o bar was kinda fun,playin games with the girls and drinking, and then when it closed, as usual the night still felt kinda young so we decided to go to some afterclub. and since i was soooo against boat quay, so we went to living room at marriot, which was YUCK. seriously. SPGs galore. i mean, i like that place in the early evening but after 3 am, its seriously one sleazy joint that i would not go back to at all. so me and jo and pearl walked to macs and just ended up sitting down and catching up over breakfast, which was actually pretty damn nice. then mike came back to join us and we all went over to joanna's house with the rest to see her kitten, and then me and mike and pearl cabbed home from there. it was a pretty interesting night la heh:)

today was awesomeeeeee. hahahah yeah yeah whatever javaboy :O hahah i loved the quiet dinner and the company, and even tho i started out tired, i found myself laughing quite abit and sumhow feelin abiiiit more energetic. then javaboy drove me home and i came to bond with the parents, who tried to force me to eat some char-tar-quay but i refused and dumped mine in the fridgeee..i enjoyed my yummy dinner wayyy to much to spoil it with eating anything more:(

i cant wait for tmwww..i dont really have much plans cept for dinner with the girls but i'm in the mood to do something low-key and boring and i'm just glad the weekend's here again. yay:)

i shall go amuse myself online for abitttt, tata!

i'm currently getting the gossip from eli. hahahaaah. *does super**** arms-in-the-airrrr*
wahhh. sounds like her saturday was wayyyy more eventful than mine. sal's as well..altho atleast sal gave me the gossip at 6 in the morning on sunday itself..this ninauya waits till now. hahahhah anywayy wah wah. hahaha;)

my sunday was spent in the laziest way ever known to man. i woke up sometime in the afternoon, and then just kept dozing off, in and out of bed..coulnt seem to get my bum out of bed. then around late afternoon i finally woke uppp, and then made plans with the sis and javaboy to go starbies around evening time to do our work.

sri cameover for abit, and booked his TICKET TO SPAIN. how unfair right, how damn bloody unfair. :( but im soo happy for himmm tho, hahha i hope he has a blast and that he also brings me back a hot spanish boy. i dont even know how to say that la in spanish la.? im not sure leh. my spanish is hopeless without my guidebook and im too lazy to go and get it.

oh i ended up cancelling the starbies session cos mal called and wanted to meet at casuarina for thosai and an update about her work and alll, someone's gota new stylo jobbb;) *wooot* ragi and siva came as well, and sri ended up joining us after much persuasion. i love casuarina. my place rocks.

after dinner we took a slowww walk home..ten i had a quick pasta dinner with my parents cos my mum is the most amazing cook, and i seriously cannot resist. plus she was cookin all day so i felt bad.
then i took a drive with my dad to go pass my sister and bro-in-law food, and then bought icecream on the way backkkk. nice nice. slackysunday.

i just woke uppp...the exterminators are in my house and ughhhh. i wish this would hurry and be over and done withhhh! its so annoyinggg. cant wait to do up my poor room, its been so abused.

am going to starbies with the sis todayyyy..javaboy's probably gonna join us as well. i am craving a caramel frappe, pronto. like right nowww. ughh. they should totally do home deliveriessss.

blehh. okay la i'm off...gotta bathe and hopefully sneak back into bed before the mummy sees me, i'm dead tired and i could use a couple hours more of running around in dreamland..especially since i was havin the most awesome one,about godknows what.

es todo.

iiiii ammm happppyyyyy.

i loved this weekend, it really was a breath of fresh air. abit of the same old, but somehow different. had tuition on friday, then i met javaboy for coffee at starbies, and we sat and drew some pictures hahaha im amused that he's as amused as i am with these kinda silly things. hahaha. then i got a lift home from the parents, only to go home and then spontaneously make plans with a friend, whom i call genius boy.(yes, they're all given names if they're special) hahah so we decided to go out for drinks, cos it was friday after all..and after midnight too, so we decided to go butter till we heard it was jampacked, and had to resort to O BAR la. hahah but nonetheless, bloody damn fun it was. we just sat at the bar, ordered our jugs and talked. random things, important things. basically i had a blast, and it's nice being able to just let loose like that here and there. yay for me.i even sat at the bar ALONE when he went to the toilet la. which i dont usually do,duh. sal went misssinggggg! but i ended up meetin her today so i wont complainnn:)

after o bar, we still felt abit in partyslack mode, so we headed down to MOS, and trottered around happily, people watching, and basically just bumming, in the club yes. then i got an unexpected fonecall..hahaha which was interesting, and i appreciated the kind words of course, totally didnt see that one coming. :) its nice when people move on and put the bad stuff behind them..its closure,i guess.

we went home after that..think genius boy was still in a partayyyy mood, since his off-days are so precious to him but i was dead tired, and i had tuition the next mornin, so i went home, ate, and knocked out.

woke up, went for tuition, and then met sal and her friend gopi at brewerks, while waitin for eli to comeee. eli came, we talked with the other two for a bit and then went to get our jap food at clarkquay central. yum. thennnnn sri joined us and we bummed for abit..me and eli shared a beer and i got my haagen daaazzzz MMMM and we slacked at clarke quay for abit till ten, then sri drove us to town, where eli went to thumper and me and sri met javaboy and geniusboy and the four of us sat down and chilled, and then caught a 1am movie at cine. hancock. i was soooo against watchin the movie, but omg i loved. even tho the boys were totally overthinkin the movie hahahah. then we headed home la. all old, and tired. hips about to break any moment..one night a week is the most i can do la.

so nice. i had the late drinkin night, and then i had the gorgeous chilled out dinner with the girls and then the boys.

and ohmy. how fast do boys bond la. i found myself drifting off here and there during their army talk and *ahem* some other stuff i wont disclose since i want my blog to me children-friendly hahaahha yes.

sooo. thats my weekend, in a nutshell. loved it, needed it,and i crave for more next week. was supposed to go to the beach tmw with sal, but i doubt she'll be up for it..plus ive got some work to do so i made plans with javaboy to starbify at thomson so we can get our work doneee. the sister toooo so i cant waiit. i love coffeee. i loveeee thomson. im so tiredddd. i neeed sleeep.

g'nightttttt!:)

Buenas tardes.

most people are half-way through their day at work, and here i am, just tumbling out of bed. why? cos i got an sms from shanker saying,'wake up pig.' heh. he knows..you know..everybody seems to know what a pig i am. BUT considering that i only got to bed at 9 in the morning, i think it's fair to say thaaaaattt...mmm 2pm is not SO bad hey?

hence begins the slack weekend. i'm sitting here and packing my bag, full of tuition materials plus my other happy little materials that make my starbies outings soooo enjoyable. sitting there smoking my lungs away or drawing fanatically some random useless drawing, that makes me happyyyyy nonetheless.
and i'm craving some yummy frappe again. i swear, it's like my petrol. Quire compre dulces. necesito comprar dulces. :( it's an addiction i swear.

okaay so i better go get readyyy. sarah, thanks for the lurrve baby! i'm not feelin sad or anythin, that drawing was from ages back la, just felt like posting it, but thank you:) mwaaaah.

on the last random note before i leave my home for the day..amk has the most awesomest fried battered mushrooms. YUM.

es todo.

and thats how we all feel sometimes.

when we've been torn apart, so bad, that even after you sew back the pieces, parts of you cant be mended anymore. tongue so sharp, ready to hurt but pierced down, so you cant say the words you wish you had. sharp teeth ready, aching to attack, but too short to defend. eyes bleeding, cos the tears have all run out. all the fights pierced into your brain, like sharp rusty nails that dont go away. tied down to something so explosive, knowing that you should really get away, but you cant seem to cut the strings that tie you down and make you stay.

even the make-up and the pretty clothes dont help. even the long fake eye-lashes dont disguise the pain inside.

how pretty can you be, when you're so unpretty inside?

yes, we've all felt that way before.

Creo que hay un, no estoy sequra todavia.

it feels like something's different, yet i cant quite put my finger on it. kinda feels like the balance has shifted abit, and i'm not very sure if its really a mistake yet, or just the way things are meant to be. the thing with me is, i get numb. and that stops me from doing the things i should, or perhaps saying things i should say. instead i pull away, hide, and take solace in the fact that god is watching so if its meant to work out, it will.

i had a lazy day today, so lazy in fact, i think i put regular couch potatos to shame heh. i dont even know what time i finally got out of bed, but then after a nice cold shower and a bit of cleaning, i was back in bed with my monkey jacket and my precious laptop.

i digress for second to say, to whoever invented the internet, muchas gracias. i dont know WHAT i'd do on rainy days, if i didnt have this magic.

anywayyy. the only form of exercise i did today was to walk out and get a pack of ciggies with my sis, and then we had a teh at the pratashop so i guess all the calories i lost with the walk, i gained back with the teh. hehhh. oh but the one productive thing i did today was to finish my drawing, yayyy. sometimes i wish i could just hop inside one of my drawings, you know? run away to that magic fairyland with the friendly giants and perfect princes, even the goblins would be a breathe of fresh air, away from here. i think i need a holiday again. really. just need to get out and clear my head before school starts.

ive been reading up on my spanish, so excuse the 'action step senorita' as eli would call it hahahah but seriously this helps me remember leh. so bear wit it.
its so weird how a few people have told me recently that i really seem to be living in my head, and i realized that its actually quite true. but like sal said, its not exactly a bad thing. i kinda like living in my head..and im happy most of the time, so why not? in fact you
can join me and esta en su casa. i think you might like it:)

anyways..tmw's gonna be a nice slack day as well..ive only got to get up around 12 and get some stuff done, then head over for tuition at gardens, and then go for dinner with the rest. holland again. i used to hang out there SO MUCH a few years back, and then for some reason i stopped,but sal and all have been loyal ever since. ive started again tho..and i'm loving it. i hope they dont renovate it too much and make it like every other place in singapore. i mean honestly, i still love dempsey but its just becoming toooo popular for my liking. sometimes when u wanna get away with ur friends and have dinner and a couple of drinks, u dont wanna have to bump into the whole world, and thats exactly what happens nowadays when u go to dempsey or clark quay or thereabouts. so yes, im loving holland, for its ambience, the people who hang out there and the tons of gorgeous food they have thereeee, my next target is the steak at harrys. oh yes. cantwait for tomorrow!

Se hace tarde. i better be getting some sleep.

*Hablo muy poco espanol, so lo siento. Hasta luego;)

Pray to God you can cope
I stand outside
This woman's work
This woman's world
Oooh, it's hard on the man
Now his part is over
Now starts the craft of the father
I know you have a little life in you yet
I know you have a lot of strength left
I know you have a little life in you yet
I know you have a lot of strength left
I should be crying but I just can't let it show
I should be hoping but I can't stop thinking
All the things I should've said that I never said
All the things we should of done that we never did
All the things I should've given but I didn't
Oh darling make it go
Make it go away

Give me them back to me
Give that little kiss
Give me your hand
I know you have a little life in you yet
I know you have a little strength left
I know you have a little life in you yet
I know you have a little strength left
I should be crying but I just can't let it show
I should be hoping but I can't stop thinking
Of all the things we should've said that were never said
All the things we should've done that we never did
All the things that you needed from me
All the things that that you wanted from me
All the things I should of given but I didn't
Oh darling make it go away
Just make it go away now.

-A woman's worth: Maxwell

ohmygawd finally.

i've kinda like been dying without my blog..the stupid thing decided to die on me, what with the background going crazy and the tagboard being the new best friend of all these retarded random advertisements. so first things first, i got a new background, a dark one, yay:)
and then i changed back to my cbox from my previous blog, hence the old 2007 message hahaha oh well. cbox rocks, so yeah.

Cheers to my new babyyyy, my secluded online diary that thankfully after almost a year of oblivion, is once again my own private place for me to rant and rave.

i've been doing alot since the last post, and realizing alot too. i'm almost done with most of my school preparation, and now im just awaiting on my room to be ready so i can start with
the re-decoration.
i cant waiiiit for that man, i miss having my nice pretty room to retire to everydayyyy:(

and MAN I MISS MY CLOTHES that are all mostly packed in boxes, except for ONE box of clothes that i've been living out of for the past few months. :( But the end of this torture is near, and im all tingly with excitement, cos i really really REALLY cant wait to have my own little hole again.

so yes. thats about it in my boring life.

Other than that, i went for a pretty awesome 'house part-ayyy' last weekend, then ended up going to gotham with my friends. went for the post-party at farzi's after that but while the rest were busy drinking(omg im a lightweight) i happily went to sleep on farzi's bed after supper-ing, completely knocked out on her hugeee bed, fit for a queen i swear. i kid you not, its really one hell of a bed.

And then the next day when everyone woke up, they were all making plans to go to dempsey for brunch. where do these people get their limitless energy? and i thought i was mad when i get into party mode! heh.

i mean normally brunch at dempsey would excite me buuuuut i was kinda exhausted from the night before, and even after bathing at farzi's place, i still had no energy.
but after much persuasion i got into the car and drove with them anyway, and then sal called and i spontaneously made plans to meet her at holland.

i know righttt..after saying i was tired and all.

but somehow a slack-lunch-and-bitching session with one of my best friends was something i definitely had energy for.. so i met her and i ate my salmon caesar salad at coffee beannnn, then me and sal headed over to harry's and ummm..yeah. we ordered a couple of kilkennys hahahah

oh well. beer in the afternoon is not considered drinking, isit?
then we met up with one of her friends, Fang, and had an interesting discussion on psychology and turtles (hahaha) and then me and sal continued our little girlie session on our own, till javaboy came to join us for dinner at harry's.

oh man, i wish i had taken fotos of the food there, its actually pretty awesome. we had some seafood platter, this chicken salad and garlic bread, and another round of drinks. then sal went to meet her friend and me and javaboy headed over to town to catch a movie, but since there were only super late shows and i wanted to be home at a reasonable hour, we just ended up driving around for abit and looking at all the GORGEOUS houses at holland, and then we headed home.

nice,nice, NICE weekend:)

monday went normal...met grace at fareast to pass her something, then met sal and javaboy at the liat coffeebean, and we headed over to Substance to buy our shoes, i love the shoes there man. we go waaaay back, i think we were shopping there since we were 18 hahah

anywayyy..sal bought this gorgeous pair of heels and i got my ribbon-y black and silver flats. im so going back this weekend to get a couple more pairssss:) oh oh oh and i wanna get my two vintage bags from holland. freakin ex, but seriously, ive never been as in love with any bag as im am with these two, so i figured its worth blowing the paycheck on..seriously. i lovee. they're both black bags but oh my gawd.
korean couture , need i say more?

oh how i digress. anyway after me and sal bought our shoes, me and javaboy went to have dinner and catch a show at lido..i had my oriental chicken salad hahah mm im pretty much addicted to salads, and then we caught 'Wanted'. such a freakin awesome movieeee. he didnt really like it but i didddd. :) :)

and angelina jolie really IS hot la..how unfaiiiiiirrr.

yesterday was pretty awesome toooo. had tuition and since i finished late, eli went home first and then met me for our dinner and coffee date at holland. we were planning on buying our vintage bags but the shop was closed:( so we grabbed dinner and then went to starbies to do our thingggg. yes, camwhore and analyze all the aspects of our beeyootifool lives:)

yes, we SHOULD throw rocks at boys.

or zappatos. *giggles*

and. i bought my awesome monkey jacket at holland, which i lovelovelove.

anyway. the starbies session ended pretty late, but me and eli managed to bus homeeee. :)

i loveee my beeetches.

today was pretty cool too...its been a string of slack-days with the ones that are dearest to me.
i had tuition at hougang, with my favourite tuition kid cos i swear he thinks i'm god hahah and then i headed down to thomson plaza to meet the sister for dinner and coffeee...we stuffed our faces with KFC and then went to starbies, where she did some work while i drew some random pictures on my new materials:)

i love drawing la, i seriously dont know many other things that make me that happy.

okayyy..so i better head off. this is one hell of a looong post but its been ages since i last blogged and well, i just felt like raving.

and thats what this blog is for, init?

yeah:)

so hasta la vista, adios!