magic beans, we call them.

i dont take drugs, i never have, and i never plan to. but how i believe in magic, and how i hope for many things, so many things.
even some things that right now, dont look so good.

i want you. i try and tell myself otherwise, i try and distract myself but the truth is, i believed in what we had, and i hope you will get better soon, so that maybe oneday, you'll be ready for you and me.

noone else comes close, u know? i dont ever feel as safe as i feel when im in your arms, and the memory of that is enuff to keep me going, for now, but i dont know how long more it'll last, till i'll need you to hold me again.

i miss you.