one night to be confused
one night to speed up truth
we had a promise made
four hands and then away

both under influense
we had demons in
to know what to say
mind is a razorblade

to call for hands of above
to lean on
wouldn't be good enough
for me, no

one night of magic rush
the start of simple touch
one night to push and scream
and make believes.

ten days of perfect tunes
the colors red and blue
we had a promise made
we were in love

to call for hands of above
to lean on
wouldn't be good enough
for me, no

to call for hands of above
to lean on
wouldn't be good enough
for me, no

and you, you knew you had to fight devil
and you, kept us away with wolf teeths
sharing different heartbeats
in one night

to call for hands of above
to lean on
wouldn't be good enough
for me, no

to call for hands of above
to lean on
wouldn't be good enough
for me, no

This is the way you left me,
I'm not pretending.
No hope, no love, no glory,
No Happy Ending.
This is the way that we love,
Like it's forever.
Then live the rest of our life,
But not together.

Wake up in the morning, stumble on my life
Can't get no love without sacrifice
If anything should happen, I guess I wish you well
A little bit of heaven, but a little bit of hell

This is the hardest story that I've ever told
No hope, or love, or glory
Happy endings gone forever more
I feel as if I'm wasted
And I'm wastin' every day

2 o'clock in the morning, something's on my mind
Can't get no rest; keep walkin' around
If I pretend that nothin' ever went wrong, I can get to my sleep
I can think that we just carried on


A Little bit of love, little bit of love

I feel as if I'm wasted
And I waste everyday

This is the way you left me,
I'm not pretending.
No hope, no love, no glory,
No Happy Ending.
This is the way that we love,
Like it's forever.
To live the rest of our life,
But not together.

i wish people were like jigsaw puzzles sometimes..where i could piece together all the different things i want and make the perfect fit. i half wonder sometimes whether i belong here. i dont think i do actually, i think i'm physically here, but my mind and soul is somewhere else, aimless, homeless, and looking for me. heh. it sounds crazy, maybe, but i just dont think i belong in a place where things are dispensable,people are inconsistent and the stars make me want to escape from earth.

i dont belong here, i think im alien.

sometimes we need to swallow our pride and just allow ourselves to get hurt, if it means saving someone else

met up wit my hameni and sal yesterday for a while, and we went to see farhahn at butter, they were havin the electrico gig and damn, i think im a fan. (as far as lazy fans who dont bother buying the cds go) then the three of us seperated our ways cos i was considering meeting up with the friends but then of course, as i would have predicted if i had been abit smarter, that didnt end up happening. its so weird la..you think you know someone, you think years of friendship should count for sumthing but in the end, it really doesnt. people arent always what or who they seem to be, and i think that when u realise that, its time to step away, otherwise you end up being an idiot for believing in something that's just not really there anymore.

was supposed to meet mal and kaartsy and ragi at outback yesterday but i ended up finishing late, so i didnt. i miss my thomson girlssss, cant wait to see them soooon:)

this weekend tempts me with all its whirlwind-fantasy promises but i think i'll pass, i need to get down to doing the things im supposed to. noone's home now, so i think i'm gonna order in some food or make a salad, and then sit down and watch a movie. its time for 'me' time again, yay.

have a greeaaaattt trip in baliiiii hameniiiii! when ya back, we have an impending double date *giggles* hahahaha lurplurp.

i'm off now, i shall be back.

anderson cooper is goddamn gorgeous. and brave. and intelligent. and funny. and driven.

he's perfect.
i would marry him, and cook for him, and do all the things i normally wouldnt do.

but he's gay. im not kidding, or do you all already know? yeah he's gay.

wtf. does there always have to be SOMETHING wrong?

twenty seconds away to my next frantic search for something to do. ive gotten my bodyclock back in order BUT the repercussions of that are driving me insane. ive got waaaay too much time on my hands now, and yes, i know ive been going out alot but even then, it seems like the days are never-ending. maybe i should just go back to being nocturnal. maybe i should just get a job. ok. lets face it, the second one's never gonna happen, atleast, im never gonna get a real job, not anytime soon. i swear i was born to be a tai-tai. i dont really wanna do anythingelse besides shop, and meet my girls, and shop, and eat good food, and shop shop shop.

any takers to make my dreams come true?;) hahahahahnna

the weekend was awesome.im lazy, so im gonna sum it up in a nutshell. friday was spent with sal and eli in town, then wine connection, then timbre, which i lovedd...then clark quay. and i went to meet ryan for a tiny while at gotham and mal and all were there toooo.

sat was amazinggg. hahahah. i met sal in town for shopping after my tuition, then ryan cameto meet me in town and we bought a bottle of tequila and headed over to the party at the girl, linda's apartment. everyone was alll dressed upppp, like seriously so ON and decked in full costumes hahaha it was hilariousss. i tried to pass off my colourful dress as a rainbow costume but noone fell for it altho someone told me i looked like a pixie. heh. yeah. gee thanks man.

thennnn we all headed down to clark quay, and i ended up chillin outside with a friend. met up with cher and all for abit then me and my friend hung out with our beers and conversation. you know how it isss, when ur dead high, and u think your havin these real deep intense intelligent conversations but more probably than not, its prob all just intoxicated gibberish hahahah but yeah. i had a blast. made me realise that my expectations were based on idiots, and that i think after last weekend, my standards of the guys i would consider dating just did a double jump and are nowhere near where they used to hang. i think we all deserve to be treated like the princesses we are:)


i chilled with the family on mondayyyy...then on tuesday i went to meet eli at cathay and we found a new spot for our impending garden part-ayyyy hahaha so fun FUN funnnn.

im gonna head out later and meet eli and sal for a quickkkk drink and then meet shawn and all. its the two year anniversary. we miss you angelo.

alright, im done. see ya!

i still believe in forever, i really do. for some reason i dont ever get jaded..maybe its the fairytale princess wannabe in me but i truly think that everything will be okay in the end, and i just pass my time while waiting for that to happen.

spent wednesday frivolously. i met my hameni and we did sum shopping in fareast. (nothing works better than retail therapy) and then me and her went to cathay for dinner..joanne came to meet us and then we headed over to plaza sing to have some wine..im not a fan of red wine but i must say, that bottle was pretty damn yum. then pearl joined us, and eli left cos she had work the next day..and java boy picked us up and we headed over to clark quay to go to gotham cos we decided against o bar finally. met up with john there and we 5 entered gotham..i saw shawny and alisaa and all theree soo it really was a pretty awesome random clubbing night laa. me and jo and all got sooooooooooooo freakkinnn flying high hahahaha and then yeah. the rest of the bights pretty much abit blurry. i feel bad, but i just reallly needed a super-high-and-dont-care about anythin or anyone night..i know its not healthy but ive been so freaking careful and good girl for the past how many months, so i think i deserved this short release,whatever the repercussions are.

anyway. i spent yesterday with the family..went to the countryclub for a bbq, which was pretty awesommmee..then we had a drink at the lounge and then drove home..today's pretty promising. i was supposed to have tuition but my kid's not well so its been postfoned..so im pretty much freeee, yay. ive got a hair appointment later at 5, and then im meeting my hameni in townnn to mc-cafe and slack and do an early night..sal's meetin us for abit too and ragi may come down after she goes to see tristonnn. speakin of which, i havent gone to see that pumpkin in agesss. soon soon.

alrightt..im gonna go hunt for food cos my tummy's rumbling and im really starving. later!